Stash Overflow

Ok...so my yarn stash is HUUUUUGE! It has been promoted to a large bin and lives in the garage because there is no room in the house. This brief entry is to reaffirm my committment to using the yarn I already own...this might make for some interesting color combinations and some strenuous pattern adjustments (calculators are allowed here). The only exception will be to buy some organic cotton and some more Manos del Uruguay Cotton Stria for the new bebe. She deserves it.

Grow up

I feel like I spend a lot of my time anticipating and looking forward to Charlotte's next phases of development rather than appreciate and savor the present. I couldn't wait until she would eat food, crawl, sleep longer (ok that one is acceptable), walk, talk, do things on her own etc. I find myself saying...I can't wait until she can...fill in the blanks...it's whatever thing she isn't doing that I think would make my life easier if she could.

So when do I get to sit back and just appreciate this moment and each and every moment of this incredibly short time? When do I savor each phase and look in amazement and appreciation of how my life has to flex and mold around her at every step...and that I am able to do that?

The other night we took Charlotte for a walk after dinner...it made me remember the hundreds of times we had walked with her when we lived in Boston....to dinner, to the park, just for fun, to help her to sleep, for exercise, for errands. When she was small she would just sleep and we could talk, hold hands and marvel at how quickly life changes when there's a baby to care for. I suddenly realized that with baby number two that we would never have that kind of time again...there will be different moments and that's fine...but why couldn't I have realized then how very special that time was rather than focus on where the road was taking us and not look around and feel the magic. Every time I see a couple with a new baby I want to run up and shake them and tell them to stop worrying about all the new baby things and to be present in that moment. I mean why did you have a baby anyway? So it could grow up and move out?

Not too exciting...

It seems when life is going relatively smoothly I have so little to say out here...writing always worked that way for me. Spring is finally here, I have no pregnancy related complaints (except my friggin' back but the chiropractor will hopefully fix that), my little beauty is great and so is dh (at least it seems that way in the 2 hours a day I see him). We're working on the business plan for our business idea (online rentals of Digital SLR lenses...really need a good name) and continuing to "renovate" the house.

Finally finished removing the horrid lighthouse-border from the Family Room, painted the room and even began the enormous task of painting the retro-dark-stained wood trim/moldings white. It looks so nice...now for the rest of the house. I probably shouldn't be painting at all but I take a lot of breaks and keep the windows open (even if it means letting the house temp get down to about 50 degrees).

Next project is the kitchen. Holy crap do I hate wall paper. The previous owners...the ones responsible for all the wall paper...live right up the street. I was tempted a few times to drag them from their homes and force them to remove it. My dear mama said she might be able to come and help us paint/watch Charlotte. Yay.

We are still working on names for baby girl #2. Nothing is sticking. I have some preliminary ideas but keep searching until one name just seems to stay in my head. Interestingly I find myself referring to her by one of the names I used to like but had decided against. Guess I shouldn't have been so hasty. So what are the names...Noelle, Margot, Veronica, Rosemary...and some others I can't think of right now.

An additional pregnancy related update...I am 23 weeks along and amazed at how good I feel overall. Sleeping well, not too hungry, no aversions, no cravings. In fact this baby likes all the healthier foods we normally eat...Charlotte liked Chocolate milk, McD's milkshakes, burgers, egg mcmuffs, and french fries, anything deep fried or covered in cheese, lasagna etc. This baby prefers the salad bar. Amazing. I almost want to crave the junk food so I have a legitimate excuse to indulge. I have been eating a little more chocolate than usual...accusing poor baby of wanting it...but truthfully I think I'm just giving myself license to eat it because I'm pregnant! I don't even feel unusually hungry. No emergency grilled cheese sandwiches, no late night pints of ice cream...just sensible meals and snacks. I am feeling a little bigger all around then with Charlotte so I wonder if I just needed to gain more weight with her. I was always hungry. Ok..I'm actually feeling a little hungry right now...maybe this baby will crave some grease after all.

So there you go...a little update...nothing too exciting. Thanks, Danielle, for encouraging me to write even if it's a little dull. And thanks for not thinking my FlyLady suggestion was totally insane (maybe a little insane).